Mathematics My GF

📚Mathematics My GF👧🏻

I was in 6th Standard when I was diagnosed with the inability to do the math. Till 10th Standard, I kept convincing myself that it wasn’t me who is doing math rather who is doing me. On days when I felt a little bit guilty. I used to tell myself, my brother, use to score 100/100 in math. So it's just a fault in my genes to miserably fail at things that come easy to me. You see math is like that lover of mine who never wrote me any love letters. She would often say our love is like the homecoming of defeated probabilities and she had this major word problem. The first time she told me the concept of rational numbers I kept myself as a denominator this way even if you stop loving me, our love won’t be undefined. But if you got to let me know that mine is supposed to be infinity either. She told me my laughter made her heartbeat reach a wavelength that resembled a sine graph. Till she started reading sine I sin and she preached a religion which baptizes the sinner by dipping them into insecurities. So the second time when I flunked in the same math exam I knew exactly why Principal*Rate*Time/100 is called simple interest and that I was in investment which would have left her all broken. All these years I have been trying to en-cover why this calculus even exists if the shooting star is tangent to my perception of not being worthy of love. If the normal line/ the cupid arrow will not cross over the basis of her idea of worthiness. If our equation is the one that cannot be derived from differentiating modern concepts of relationships. If our feelings are the variable that cannot be integrated to form something less complex. All this time I've been trying to convince myself that maybe She and I were the best Permutation god I could think of to read about parallels. The last time she said she loved me I realized that If Speed is directly proportional to Distance then it might have to be across the entire light year to believe that she actually does love me. But Speed is also inversely proportional to time/her no motion for forever. You see the reason behind my past relationship is that I’m very bad with tricky questions And If math was a person in real life, it would be her constantly reminding me that maybe I’m too much of spring to ever be worth to fall.